About Me (Old)

Hello! Thank you for joining me here on my blog. A little about myself…

Writing

I’m an aspiring science fiction author with interests in the social science fiction sub-genre of science fiction (although I am considering a change in direction; stay tuned). Why social science fiction? Imagine no hunger, poverty, war, or violence of any kind. I’d like to create a dystopian world, turn it around, and then make it into a safe and wonderful place to live where there would be minimal conflict. The responsibility to raise a child falls not only on the parents but also on the local community as a whole. It is up to everyone to foster lifelong curiosity, imagination, and responsibility in the child. Every youth grows up to be self-governing. World leaders have no power.

The leaders of the new One Society on the planet are teachers and guides. They have no authority except to lead by example and to raise awareness of all that is. The power of Fountain penTruth is universal, something that is experiential and understood. It is comparable to a well-tuned musical instrument. Truth is the One force behind all things and connects all that is.

Love is a byproduct of Truth. The world is a harmonious environment where an individual’s motivations are their own sense of curiosity of things, their creative talents, and love for others as well as for themselves. There is no need for money or power over other people because of the individual’s natural inborn personal powers realized independently through their own queries, accomplishments, and experience.

“Science fiction is any idea that occurs in the head and doesn’t exist yet, but soon will, and will change everything for everybody, and nothing will ever be the same again. As soon as you have an idea that changes some small part of the world you are writing science fiction. It is always the art of the possible, never the impossible.” ~Ray Bradbury

I’ve written mostly essays over the years, and began keeping a journal in 1981 when I was attending college. During my work life in the field of Information Technology (IT), I wrote a number of technical papers and reports. For any future short stories or novels, my research is ongoing. My daily writing focus is on blogging, on my journal, and on learning to write poetry.

Previous Talents

musicnotesIn my life I’ve proven to be both musical and athletic. I studied classical guitar, piano, and voice in my youth although I no longer play an instrument. I’ve been into tennis, golf, cycling, running, softball, hiking, and backpacking. I love camping, too, so I’m something of a nature nut.  The wilderness areas are awesome with all the color, and with all the trees, flowers, rivers, lakes, wildlife, hills, and mountains.

I’m also technical-minded. I loved music theory and physics of acoustics in college. I love the mechanics of writing. When I entered the workforce in 1986, I was introduced to computers. It sparked an interest in me, so I studied computer science and did well at that.

Mental Health and Stigma

But I’m no longer into athletics or play any musical instruments due to mental health problems. I have been severely disabled off and on throughout my adult life which became apparent in college. Eventually, I’d be diagnosed with bipolar disorder and PTSD. By 2001, I would go on social security disability.

I’ve lost many jobs due to the stigma of mental illness. It isn’t that I couldn’t do the work, I could. And I’d have near-perfect attendance records. One place I worked at was Compaq supportmentalhealthComputer Corporation. My work group was tasked with quality assurance of commercial desktop PCs that were under development. They gave me a performance review which placed me on probation. Me? Unbelievable.

It was a very good review. I showed it to people and they were impressed. I was one of the top three in the group if not the best, the review said. But it indicated that I was unable to communicate effectively, could be difficult to work with, would get moody, and had difficulty accepting change… all of which were symptoms of having a mood disorder. Yet it also stated, “In several areas she out shines most in the lab, her attention to detail, thoroughness and follow up are excellent.”

“Mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of, but stigma and bias shame us all.” ~Bill Clinton

I wasn’t always symptomatic. When I was, the symptoms wouldn’t keep me from going to work every day and on time, and it wouldn’t keep me from doing my best. But I lost that job after having been employed there for 4 years.

When I was working, it didn’t cross my mind that I had a disability. I hadn’t even considered it. To me, if someone were disabled they were blind or in a wheelchair. So I hadn’t thought about it, and I didn’t know the Americans with Disabilities Act or the EEOC could have helped me. I could have asked for reasonable accommodations if I had known any of this. In the end, at the suggestion of my doctor, I applied for social security disability.

Cancer

I’m a breast cancer survivor. Lucky for me, it was caught early. There are many out there who are not so fortunate. Initially it was quite frightening. It was the not knowing.  Diagnosed in July of 2010, I became cancer-free after my bilateral mastectomy in August of that same year. It all happened so fast! Chemo and radiation were not necessary for me. I just take this one little pill every morning until October 16, 2020. As life moves forward, I continue to count my blessings.

“There can be life after breast cancer. The prerequisite is early detection.” ~Ann Jillian

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In a Nutshell

So this is me! With an inquisitive mind full of worldly possibilities, I have stories to tell. There are questions to be asked and ideas to explore. Everyone wants meaning in their lives. I am in search of my own. Thanks for listening. And thanks for visiting my blog!